125 gr sugar.
I’m not doing well lately, I’m shaking when I wake up and I ache through my cup of coffee.
T.S measured his life in coffee spoon and I measure mine in the time it takes,
from coffee until my heart has woken up.
1 tbs flour
1/4 tsp baking powder.
There will be days like these, the days we have to live,
Wednesdays afternoon at 4 pm and fridays at noon.
My hips have started aching like I spend my nights with legs wrapped around your memory.
What a horrid phantom ache to have.
250 gr coconut
two big handfuls of baked almonds.
I don’t take my medication on time and I crouch on the floor cleaning first thing in the morning.
Like I can scrub my heart clean, from your footsteps like I can this floor.
How many more are gonna walk on their heavy heels over the soft of my stomach?
Are there scuff marks on me from where you kissed me?
Melt butter and set aside.
My body has growing marks stretched all over,
when I met you I finally had an appetite for the city, for things dripping,
catching life on my tongue.
Combine eggs and sugar, whisk until fluffy.
You beat yourself up over words I never said and yet you heard,
I clean everything because I thought you would leave if I didn’t.
I think we walked away from something perceived.
Add flour, baking powder, cooled butter and coconut/almonds, mix until a sticky mixture.
There are the days I will have now,
the ones where you’re not here.
Your fingerprints on the mirror have been wiped clean, there are no generic tea bags on the counter.
One heaped table spoon portions that is gently pressed down with a fork makes a good sized cookie.
These are the loves we have,
the sweet pressure of lips on lips on shoulders on laughing faces.
And then there is absence of heart and mind and tongues.
And I stopped drinking coffee and you minded your blood pressure.
bake in the middle of the oven, 200 degrees, 10-12 minutes, until edges are brown.
And when the time comes, eat these in the empty bed.
Lick my fingers clean,
smother them in chocolate.
And when the time comes, share them with someone new.